Feelin better

I am doing better.

I started to walk at the park with Julio, actually we got "scolded" by a police officer one night because we were 10 mins late leaving. Sheesh!!

So that walking really helps. I also have been lifting weights like hand weights a couple hundred reps a day!

Tomorrow mom has a dr apt so I am going to jump on the scale there to see how it compares to mine at home. I hope good :)

Feelin blue

I know I am just a day away from 2 months but it feels like forever!

I just feel blue, not sure what I need to get me excited about this journey again. I am sure and have been told there are many ups and downs on this ride so I guess I will just hang on tight.

2 months 1 day since surgery

I reminded myself for two days to make sure I wrote on the actual anniversary day and what happened? I missed it!!!!

Well not too much going on this last week. I am seeing a therapist to keep me on track and such. I was having problems eating, like getting food in and she helped me realize that food now isn't enjoyable but it is fuel and for me to think of it that way. So this week I did better making sure I ate during the day.

Tried chinese, garlic chicken didn't work, made me sick. I stopped before it got too bad so it was just a minor upset.

I am going to meet with a new friend from a support group online, she lives in Silver Spring she has the same surgery about 2 mos before I did so that should be neat.

Yesterday was 7 weeks since surgery!

I can't believe it has been 7 weeks, well in a way I can and in a way I can't.
I have been doing really good and not gotten sick, well I have not been eating either which is NOT good and I don't recommend but it is scary.

Yesterday I made a great bean salad with black beans and garbanzos, garlic, lime, evoo, salt and salsa. Tasted great but lots of carbs. I am really not in the meat mood. I have always had real issues with meat and now it is worse.

I have been trying to find some good "snacks" that are high in protein and low in carbs to fill the gaps in my day.

I have found a Smoothie King nearby and found I can have a "treat" when Julio and Leanza get ice cream at the near by Bruesters. The protein shake I get at SK has my whole days requirements of protein! In my entertainment book I even found a coupon for buy one get one free so I have one for today!

Julio took some photos of me the other day. I have some from the night before my surgery and now ones from my 45lb loss but I am still not ready to post them yet! :)

Thanks again everyone for reading my blogg and being so supportive, it really helps and means a lot to me!
Love you all!

Got Weighed today!

Well, I sure had a surprise today.

I went to my PCP to recheck my blood pressure medicine and I have lost a total of 45lbs!!!!!!!!!!!

And, she also cut my meds down from 100mg a day to 50! Hopefully next month I won't need it at all!

Doing pretty good the past two days!

Thank goodness, I have been so weak since I have not been able to eat!

Yesterday it was Williams birthday, I was really feeling terrible but I was going no matter what. I stopped at Walmart and got some nuts to munch on.

While I was there I had some mixed nuts some topping off of pizza it was cheese and mushrooms, I did really well, no upsets. So that stayed in and today I had nuts for breakfast and some pizza topping again for dinner tomorrow I might have some energy to do some long overdue grocery shopping! BIG ADVENTURE lol

Month Anniversary!

Ok, so I know today is Wednesday but I have to say that I have not been much up to writing. I am having a really hard time adjusting to my new insides or should I say my new insides are having a hard time getting use to eating.

I have been sick many many times which then makes it so I can not do ANYTHING for that day and then eat nothing the next. I have NO energy from this so inturn I can not do the exercising I should be doing. Once again, a vicious circle. SIGH

This trial and error period which can extend for a very long time is very trying. What does not work now, may work later but lets face it after being so sick you are curled up in the fetal position for hours or stuck on the toilet with the trash can up to your face, who wants to go through that again???

Food has become such a drag, I hate to say it but it has. SIGH

So, I am mending from my infections and now recouping from my last episode. One month down, a lifetime to go.....

I won't give up hope that it is going to get better. I was told to make that judgement at the 6 month mark, but even if at that time I am not happy, what can I do about it? LOL NOTHING!!!!