Doing pretty good the past two days!

Thank goodness, I have been so weak since I have not been able to eat!

Yesterday it was Williams birthday, I was really feeling terrible but I was going no matter what. I stopped at Walmart and got some nuts to munch on.

While I was there I had some mixed nuts some topping off of pizza it was cheese and mushrooms, I did really well, no upsets. So that stayed in and today I had nuts for breakfast and some pizza topping again for dinner tomorrow I might have some energy to do some long overdue grocery shopping! BIG ADVENTURE lol

Month Anniversary!

Ok, so I know today is Wednesday but I have to say that I have not been much up to writing. I am having a really hard time adjusting to my new insides or should I say my new insides are having a hard time getting use to eating.

I have been sick many many times which then makes it so I can not do ANYTHING for that day and then eat nothing the next. I have NO energy from this so inturn I can not do the exercising I should be doing. Once again, a vicious circle. SIGH

This trial and error period which can extend for a very long time is very trying. What does not work now, may work later but lets face it after being so sick you are curled up in the fetal position for hours or stuck on the toilet with the trash can up to your face, who wants to go through that again???

Food has become such a drag, I hate to say it but it has. SIGH

So, I am mending from my infections and now recouping from my last episode. One month down, a lifetime to go.....

I won't give up hope that it is going to get better. I was told to make that judgement at the 6 month mark, but even if at that time I am not happy, what can I do about it? LOL NOTHING!!!!

Three weeks!

Ok, so I have not posted in awhile.

I have not been feeling that great. Lots of physical but also mental things that have me down.

Today for instance I had to take an unexpected trip to the dr. I have an incision that is infected, I have been nursing it for a few days and it isn't getting much better. So better safe than sorry I went.

He looked at it put a band aid on it and said I was fine! He isn't right around the corner so I was sorry to have inconvenienced Julio to drive me there for nothing but once again better safe than sorry I guess.

Lazy day

So yesterday I didn't get to write because we were out and about with Sam and William and went to the Urbana Carnival, we had fun.

I ALMOST lasted the whole trip. I had a strange pain in my side by one of my incisions and had to go sit down, but not long afterwards everyone else came too.

I put myself on a liquid day yesterday trying to recover from the day before when I was in so much pain from eating too much!

Today I ate dinner and just drank the first part of the day. I didn't over do it, YEAH!
I actually just counted out tablespoons. I still felt what I thought was a bit hungry but as they say, you can always have more but once you have eaten too much, you can't go back!

Well, I didn't eat more, I had some SF popscicles instead.

Just got done watching WALL E , oh yeah, now to put munchkin to bed!

HUGE MISTAKE!

Ok, so yesterday, Friday night I didn't write, why you may ask?

Well I was in AGONY! I overate at dinner.

Now mind you in the GB world that means instead of a 1/4 of a C of food I may have gone over to maybe 1/2C . OOOOUUUUUCCCCHHHHHHH! I am still learning how to tell when I am "satisfied" and not let it get to the FULL part because if it gets there, even hours later I feel full to the gills literally. It felt as if the food was all the way up to the back of my throat, gross yes but that is the only way I can explain it.

So today, I am going to do liquids for most of today as I am still sore this am and I feel "FULL" still. So, hopefully by tomorrow I can, try it again. You know, this new thing called eating LOL!

Post op check up day!

Well, it is official 30lbs!!!!!!

They Dr was very happy!

He said I was healing really fast and everything looked good and I could move on to "regular" food. YEAH, but also scary. The trial and error period they call it, well if you hit a food that is in the error part of the equation means that you feel VERY ill. Cold chills, sweating, nausea, gastro intestinal issues, etc, NOT FUN.

So, Leanza wanted CLAM CHOWDER for dinner so we went to RL to get her some a bowl full to go and Julio and I hit our favorite sub joint. I knew I would not be able to eat the bread but I am ok with that. It is just the feeling of something other than MUSH in my mouth and deli meats is on the list of ok foods for someone on the 3rd week post op.

So, at home I had a spoonful of Leanza's Chowda :) and a bite and I mean a small bite of her mozz stick and I could only manage to eat 1/4 of the 1/2 of the sub I had gotten and even that, I should have stopped probably a bite before I did, CRAZY.

I didn't think it was going to stay down, then I didn't think it was going to settle but it did! So I am still feeling FULL FULL FULL and that was at 6pm.

So, onward the journey goes still lots of excitement ahead!

Thank goodness I can no longer binge, for that in itself I am so thankful!

2 week Anniversary today!!!!!!!!!!!!

Two weeks, WOW, I can't believe it. I am glad though, I am ready for all the hurt to go away , to be able to hold and rock Leanza before she goes to bed and for me to get on with LIFE!

I could not eat anything other than my protein drinks and a Tablespoon of PB today. When I look at food I feel nauseous! I will definitely have to bring that up at my dr apt on Thurs.

I have cravings and if it isn't what I am craving then it makes me feel sick. Today I really wanted a grilled cheese sandwich, not out of the question but I need to have the ok from the doc first. Then I know I will only be able to eat maybe half so, I guess I would just make a half to begin with.

I am really ready to say I do not want to see another protein drink, applesauce, or pudding for a very long time. lol

I want to thank all of you who take time out of your busy schedules to read my blog and check up on me, leave me comments and such, it really means a lot to me!